Chrissy

Ok, these are my trips for the summer so far: (and events)

June 25th-July 2nd: Florida to see mom and Crystal
July 7th: My birthday, and Nellie may come visit
July 14th & 15th: Trip with Daryl to Old Forge (dates may change)
July 20th: Crystal's birthday

Plus I'll have summer school throughout July, dont have the dates for that yet.
Looks like I'll have half of August free to do something, maybe Staten Island. :)

Anyways, today some boy paid me 20 dollars to not kick his ass. LMAO I can get rich doing this.. I wasnt even threatening him in any way, either. He is just afraid of me, and when he said all he had was 20 dollars (because some other boy was bugging him for money) I put out my hand (jokingly) for him to give me the money, and he actually did it. Hah. 20 bucks for me.

I dont know what to do anymore.
Daryl and I get along so well most of the time, but then there are days like last night. I got all dressed up just for him. He hardly cared. I wanted to go to a gaming center, since we never have anything better to do anyway, and he gets angry. We eventually go, and at the end of the one hour we spend there, he is angrier. We go to blockbuster, spend about 45 min there, and walk out with nothing. We end up at Walmart, and I'm forced to buy a 20 dollar movie because he doesnt want his trip down the block to Walmart to be a waste. He is even angrier now, and starts yelling at me just because I dont always play the video games I already have. Can you believe this? Imagine if we had some real problems. Maybe he just doesn't know how good he has it. Figures he wouldn't be appreciative. He was ranting on and on about these games I buy and play once. Then yells at me for all the games I have, spent money on, and wind up playing a free internet game. So fuckin what? Its my time, I can do whatever I want with it, its not like he wasted any money on those games. The fuckin nerve. To fight with me over shit like this. Shit that dont even matter, and never will matter in life. Then he started yelling about how he always "pre-warns me that doing *insert whatever I want to do here* is a waste of time" So I asked him if he prefers me to be a robot, and he says "is there a difference between a nobody with 50 games, and a nobody without them?" So I suppose I'm a nobody now.
I try to be nice, I try to be fair, I treat him so well, but that never matters, does it?
God fobid I have a mind of my own, and want to do something other than the same shit every weekend, he cant even handle that.
Do you know him and I even fight over senior prom? I want to go to my senior prom, and he keeps telling me he doesnt want to because once again, its a "waste of time, and I am already pre-warning you this...blah blah blah" So what, I wanna go to my fuckin senior prom, its once, and only once, and I'll be damned if he tells me I cant go. Fuck that shit.

Yeah so I have this friend Panther, he likes me blah blah, told him I could never be with him cause Im with Daryl blah blah, but we can still be good friends. So yesterday I asked him to hang out with me today, and he said ok, and he said he would meet me at the "fence." (Its a fence...by my school..) And I told him he better show up, and he said he will. Well today after school I went there, and he wasnt there. I wasn't going to make myself look like an idiot by standing there waiting for him, especially when he probably wont show up. Panther has a bad habbit of standing people up like that, and thats the one and only time he will ever get to do this to me. He can make an ass outta me just once, and thats it. So now, he can go fuck himself. I dont need people who cant even meet me when they promised to in my life. Jessica saw him sign onto aim earlier, and she IMed him asking where the hell he was, and he just signed off. What a pussy.
Well thats my story. I have to go now.

Daryl bought me a baby bunny for 10 bucks at the pet shop down the street. I love this bunny, he/she isnt afraid of anyone, sits there and cuddles, and when I let it run around it flips out like its insane. :) I dont know if its a boy or girl yet because its too young to tell yet. They also had baby ducks and chicks there as well, but I'm not sure if they were for sale. The bunny was like an Easter present I guess, only Daryl doesnt do religious holidays. School is beginning to worry me, I hope I am not going just to end up dropping out because one class fucks me over. I cannot be absent again in bio otherwise I fail. I have 40 absences in that class because its 1st period, and I'm always late, so I miss that class alot, yet I still managed to pass everything. I think there shouldnt be a limit for absences. Some people have problems and cannot help it. And if they fail because of it, thats their problem. I have proven that I can pass even if I am absent every week. Hah. But yeah, this will be hard to do...whenever I need the day off, I have to go to school for first period, and second, depending if I have lab that day, before I can go home. I went home early today because for two days I havent gotten much sleep.

I just have a horrible story to tell.. :/

Last night I saw cop car lights flashing infront of my house. They were right across the street. I stood infront of the window watching them, at first, I didnt know why they were there, but I kept hearing these weird moaning noises. It turned out to be a deer... See I live across the street from the cemetary, there are gates that surround it, and deer go in there all the time. The gates are pointed, perfect weapons. :/ The poor deer tried to jump over the fence but didnt make it over. The spiked edges of the fence went right into his hind area. I felt so bad that this poor deer was hanging from the fence. I was hoping the cops would save the poor deer, and I guess they tried, but they couldn't. The deer was trying so hard to get down, but the deer was seriously impaled onto the fence. The cops decided to put it out of its misery and shot the poor deer. Mind you, I have never seen an animal get shot, so I didnt expect it. They shot the deer three times before they finally killed it. They removed it from the fence..
This morning, the deer was still there. But it was gone by the time I came home from school.

Wow, a week flies by so fast. Lets see, I'm going to be broke this month, and I wanted and needed things done this month. Ugh. I need my pills, which cost 150 bucks..The dentist needs to be paid 350 bucks..thats 500 so far..plus I wanted to get my permit, which is around 70-80 dollars.. (I really need to get my permit already, I'm almost 18 and dont have one yet) And..here is the want part...:( Harvest Moon is coming out with a new game, I MUST HAVE IT! Hehe...thats only like 40 bucks, cheapest thing on this months To-Do list. Permit has been on my "To-Do" list for like.. 2 years but whatever.. I dont think I have anything else to say..Daryl and I are doing better I guess. :)

Same shit, different day. Just irritated with my boyfriend right now. Its no big deal really, but sometimes little things bug the shit out of me. He came to see "me" during lunch. We spent the entire time he was there with HIS friends Nic, Dylan, etc... to record a dumb movie..actually a 5 minute scene, that we never even recorded...Thats not the problem though, I could care less. The problem is that he made me ditch Jessica and Kigan so I could hang out with him and his friends. Then, when Daryl knew we weren't going to record, he decided to leave. There was still a good ten minutes left before I had to go to class...He wouldn't even stay for that last ten minutes because of bullshit exscuses. He left me alone. What really pissed me off was that he was willing to stay for Nic, to record, but when it came to his own girlfriend...the person he "loves" he wont dare waste his precious fucking time for.
Sometimes I dont understand why I bother with him...I think I am upset with him more than I am happy with him, but I am trying so fuckin hard to hang onto this "love" we have...I dont want him out of my life, but sometimes, it just seems like I'll be miserable 75% of my time with him..
Since I'm on a rant about my boyfriend issues..let me vent about something else. He comes over to see me, right? You would think that. But not really. Every fuckin time he spends 95% of his time with me on this fuckin computer. He always has an exscuse, but ya know what, I'm sick of it. I'm tired of having to watch him on my fuckin computer, have him tell me what I can or cannot do with MY computer..and falling asleep because I have nothing better to do. He gets upset that I always fall asleep. But wtf, can you blame me? Does he seriously expect me to sit there and watch him on my computer? He asks me what we should do, but there is not much to do, this is Oneonta. Walmart...and Denny's thats all thats here, no joke. That gets boring, but you would think that instead of sitting at the computer for hours when he is suppose to be hanging out with me, he would come cuddle, or do something with me...
Wow, now I feel somewhat better. Sometimes, I wish he would secretly read my online journal..

Oh yay, more bad news: Looks like I'm not going to Staten Island during April, cause my dad cant even afford to pick me up. Lovely, ain't it?

Yup, nothing special today. I went for the thrid part of my root canal today though...I sat in that fucking chair for two hours until the dentist finally finished. Out of two hours, he probably only actually worked on me for 45 minutes. He actually fuckin forgot I was in the chair waiting for him, with a cap mold in my mouth...for 30 minutes. How could he forget about me for 30 fuckin minutes? OMG whatever. I didnt get home until nearly 5:30pm...My appointment was at 3:15.. Now my arm hurts and I dont know why, but I think I'm going to take a nap before Daryl gets here, and then sits on the computer for the rest of the night, throwing one exscuse after the other at me as to why he absolutely needs to be on the computer. Ugh, boyfriends...Gotta love'em..?

Holy fuck, so weekends go super quick. Ughhh..I hate waking up knowing it will only be Monday morning. But I guess school isn't too bad. It goes kinda quick. Anywho..
I went to the Binghamton mall on Saturday. It was amazing, know why? Cause it was a REAL mall!
It had more than 10 stores in it. :D I bought some clothers, new HIM sneakers, earrings, necklace, and probably some other stuff too but I cannot remember.
Today, ah yes, today...was cold. It snowed again, and we all decided (like the intelligent people we are) to record for a school video out in the snow in the park... (Not our project, a friend named Nic's project.. about a book, only we made it into a gangsta version, its pretty funny. We get to run over my baby doll with the car) But we froze our asses off. I was even smarter, because I brought an iced mocha drink with me. Haha. Oh yeah, I didn't see Panther this weekend. Oh well. Shit happens.
-Note to self: Call Daddy about the city <333

I dont have much to write right now.. I'm getting somewhat more comfortable with my friend Panther.. (yeah thats his real name) We hung out today, and it was a decent change of atmosphere.
I'm really annoyed that Daryl decided it was more important to watch three movies with his brother Sean because Sean coudln't decide what movies to rent, so they go three...instead of calling me. I'm sorry, but I think its fucked up. You'll probably recognized my passionate hatred for Daryl's brother...
I just wanna get away sometimes...